这么快又一年了
这个部落格已经被搁在一旁一年了
只因为某些事情
忽然间不敢再写部落格了...
发现原来已经没有一个角落
可以安静地让自己说话
让自己说心里面想对自己说的话
以前都有写日记的习惯
当科技不断地在发达
才发现原来已经忘记了当初写日记的初衷...
最后
还是得回来这里
看看一年前的自己
再看看一年后的自己
变成了什么样...
没错
确实什么都没变
除了自己变得很现实以外...
其实自己是知道自己是多么地现实
因为环境不得不让我有这样的想法
常常在想
以后自己将会过什么样的生活
自己又必须要多努力才会让自己好过一些...
到底自己够不够努力呢
为何身边的人的脚步都这么慢
还是其实自己是很慢的呢...
长大了的生活
是常常需要思考的
而当中不会有明确的答案
只能够靠自己不断地去摸索...
没错
很多事情都是要靠自己的
一定要靠自己
所以自己一定要很努力很努力
在新的一年有新的作为！

It was held on 17th April, 3pm...
Not many people attended, but those attended are my best friends
Still remember the moment I stand on stage
Looking at the floor, with full of applause
I know I did it!
Without perfect, but with satisfaction.

Really thanks for my lecturer, Mr. Juan Pablo
Who lead me from the moment I studied in UCSI until now
You really give me a lot of encouragement
Once you're my lecturer, forever you're my lecturer!
You're the best! Love ya so much!

There are too many people I have to thanks to
Because without them, I won't be here
I really appreciate
Especially my dear...
Though I always complain the way you talk to me
But I know u never meant it...

I felt touching after I finished my last song
And I know this might be my last performance in UCSI
I will have to start my another journey
To go for other level...

Thank you for all the support!
I really wish my music could touch your heart!

实在很黑...不只如何会感染上这样的病毒...
据说，这种病通常只发生在小孩
成人会患上的机会率很少
而病状是：手掌及脚板会生红点，这些红点会引起疼痛
最伤的是喉咙，周围都是伤，连吞口水都成问题...

这几天都过得很不好很不好
刚刚发烧后却又得了这样的病
医生说不能和别人接触
以免传染给别人
结果我弟还是无缘无故地中招了
还好不是太严重...

那里都不能去
不能去教课，不能去公共场所，不能练习，不能乱吃东西
结果满肚子都是水和药...
下个星期就是我的Graduation Recital了
还真但是到时候的健康状态...

From the day we arrive on the planet
And, blinking, step into the sun
There's more to see than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done
There's far too much to take in here
More to find than can ever be found
But the sun rolling high
Through the sapphire sky
Keeps great and small on the endless round

It's the Circle of Life
And it moves us all
Through despair and hope
Through faith and love
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle
The Circle of Life

It's The Circle of Life
And it moves us all
Through despair and hope
Through faith and love
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle
The Circle of Life

虽然就这样过了两年
但是心里面还是埋藏了那不可碰触的刺
每每一个人的时候
就会想起以前一家人的生活
就会埋怨为何当初不好好珍惜...
不喜欢现在的生活
虽然得到很多物质上的满足
但是现在就像拥有两个家庭
而每个家庭都有一个陌生人
而我却不喜欢这个闯入我家庭的陌生人...
很无奈...
现在的一切都只像在应酬
也不敢多问
真的害怕很多东西会即将消失
我不想一个人面对这样的家庭
我不喜欢现在
不喜欢...

I couldn't sleep well yesterday... I dreamed that tomorrow is my graduation, but I haven't finish my composition. I only practice once with my band members and it was terrible. And tomorrow is my grad recital, how to perform? I choose not to attend my grad recital. My band members help me to play my songs. All the audience wondering why the composer is not there...

I'm suffering from preparing this recital... Very hard to get people to practice... We only can book jam room for 1 hour a week, how to practice? My songs haven't finish writing... I'm tired of changing and changing things... Tired of asking band member's timetable... Tired of receiving SMS from band members said that they are busy, can't attend the practice... I definitely understand all the graduates feeling... IT'S TOTALLY NO GOOD!

I wish to finish this project as soon as possible so that I can concentrate in doing other things... I don't want to have this kind of nightmare again... cause it's too real... I don't want to wake up in frighten again... No more, please...

From the moment confirm the Highlands Harmonica Festival and Yu Hua Harmonica Concert, I'm busying like hell... Need to prepare so many orchestra scores, train up the students, paper works, arranging, teaching, graduation recital, practice, meeting, so on and so on... Every morning woke up by the shining sun, then open the PC, start doing works, then go out either teaching or meeting, from here to there, then back at night, continue doing works, then sleep... I like this kind of life but everytime I think of my graduation recital, oh my god.. I still haven't finish my songs... I still haven't start to practice with my band... I still haven't do my program notes, port folio, CD, recording and so on... I'm really bad in time arrangement. Suppose everything has to start from last year holiday, but I didn't... My bad... I have to work very hard, cause I know I will achieve my dreams very soon... I want to make the festival and concert success! I want to make my graduation recital success! I want everybody admire me! I want to let all the people know:

DON'T SUSPECT A GIRL'S TALENT!

Time's flies! And now already 2009...
What I've done in the pass 2008?
When I look back to my notebook, I knew that I was wasting time again
because all my targets still haven't achieve, and those targets I set them 2 years ago...
OH MY GOD!! I was sucks!

Now I'm trying to list down those big project I've done in 2008:

1. Won champion and 1st Runner-up in APHF Hangzhou on Nov
2. Success to change my major teacher to Juan Pablo (the beginning of my journey)
3. Assist Yu Hua Harmonica Club to achieve their dreams in competition on Dec
4. 1st concert of FRESCO Harmonica Ensemble on June
5. Done my very first of pop song
6. Interviewed by ICON Magazine

Opppss... I don't know what other things I've done in 2008...
I promise that I don't want to waste my time anymore in 2009!

And here are my targets in 2009:

1. Graduate from UCSI
2. Make the very 1st Harmonica Symphony Orchestra
3. Album CD
4. Musical Project
5. Stop taking money from parents!
6. Theme song for MHS
7. World Harmonica Champion

I will make them success! I will prove this:
"DON'T SUSPECT A GIRL's TALENT!"