I couldn't sleep well yesterday... I dreamed that tomorrow is my graduation, but I haven't finish my composition. I only practice once with my band members and it was terrible. And tomorrow is my grad recital, how to perform? I choose not to attend my grad recital. My band members help me to play my songs. All the audience wondering why the composer is not there...

I'm suffering from preparing this recital... Very hard to get people to practice... We only can book jam room for 1 hour a week, how to practice? My songs haven't finish writing... I'm tired of changing and changing things... Tired of asking band member's timetable... Tired of receiving SMS from band members said that they are busy, can't attend the practice... I definitely understand all the graduates feeling... IT'S TOTALLY NO GOOD!

I wish to finish this project as soon as possible so that I can concentrate in doing other things... I don't want to have this kind of nightmare again... cause it's too real... I don't want to wake up in frighten again... No more, please...

From the moment confirm the Highlands Harmonica Festival and Yu Hua Harmonica Concert, I'm busying like hell... Need to prepare so many orchestra scores, train up the students, paper works, arranging, teaching, graduation recital, practice, meeting, so on and so on... Every morning woke up by the shining sun, then open the PC, start doing works, then go out either teaching or meeting, from here to there, then back at night, continue doing works, then sleep... I like this kind of life but everytime I think of my graduation recital, oh my god.. I still haven't finish my songs... I still haven't start to practice with my band... I still haven't do my program notes, port folio, CD, recording and so on... I'm really bad in time arrangement. Suppose everything has to start from last year holiday, but I didn't... My bad... I have to work very hard, cause I know I will achieve my dreams very soon... I want to make the festival and concert success! I want to make my graduation recital success! I want everybody admire me! I want to let all the people know:

DON'T SUSPECT A GIRL'S TALENT!

Time's flies! And now already 2009...
What I've done in the pass 2008?
When I look back to my notebook, I knew that I was wasting time again
because all my targets still haven't achieve, and those targets I set them 2 years ago...
OH MY GOD!! I was sucks!

Now I'm trying to list down those big project I've done in 2008:

1. Won champion and 1st Runner-up in APHF Hangzhou on Nov
2. Success to change my major teacher to Juan Pablo (the beginning of my journey)
3. Assist Yu Hua Harmonica Club to achieve their dreams in competition on Dec
4. 1st concert of FRESCO Harmonica Ensemble on June
5. Done my very first of pop song
6. Interviewed by ICON Magazine

Opppss... I don't know what other things I've done in 2008...
I promise that I don't want to waste my time anymore in 2009!

And here are my targets in 2009:

1. Graduate from UCSI
2. Make the very 1st Harmonica Symphony Orchestra
3. Album CD
4. Musical Project
5. Stop taking money from parents!
6. Theme song for MHS
7. World Harmonica Champion

I will make them success! I will prove this:
"DON'T SUSPECT A GIRL's TALENT!"

从知道他要结婚到现在
我都打从心底衷心地祝福他
因为像他这样的男人
女人心目中的模范男人
是注定要幸福的...
在昨晚的婚宴里
可以完全感受到
他心里面那种无语言喻的感动
围绕着每一个人...
尤其是当他想让他的另一半表示他有多幸福的那刻
我的眼泪一直在眼眶里打滚
因为爱的力量
真的能让身边的每一个人
当然也包括自己最爱的人
的生命充满了意义及感动...
婚姻
是另一个幸福的开始
我是一直这么认为的...
如果每一对夫妇都会在吵架的时候
想起他们结婚的那一刻
想起为对方戴上戒指的那一刻
我相信这世界上
就不会有那么多孤单并缺乏爱的孩子...

算了算
自己努力了7年
从2002-2008
终于拿到了追求了很久的冠军奖项...
这次凯旋归来
心中难免有很多的感触
尤其是独奏项目
谁也没有想过我竟然可以拿到一个亚军
亚太独奏亚军
已经很久没有女生领亚太独奏前三名的奖项了...
但是很奇怪
这次认同自己演奏的人不如从前
也没有太多的赞赏...
没关系
继续努力
总有一天会有人发现
亚军这个奖项
我是夺得实至名归的！

独奏 - 亚军
二重奏 - 亚军
四重奏 - 冠军

恭喜恭喜！
感谢一路以来支持我们FRESCO口琴重奏团的人
你知道我在说你 :)

昨晚发了一个很难过的梦
故事是这样的...

那已经是很深的夜了，我在旧家等爸爸来载我
当爸爸到达时，他很生气地拿着藤条一面打我一面骂
“做么你整天酱迟才回？又拿了我多少钱去吃？。。。”
然后我一面跑，一面哭着回答
“我刚刚去表演回来！我没有用你的钱，我是用自己的钱吃东西！你的钱在阿boy那里！ ”
然后我就跑到阿娘（伯母）的身后要她保护我...

然后，我醒了，只觉得心很痛...
曾经，我是爸妈最疼的孩子
但是现在，却觉得什么也没有了，没有了疼爱及关心...
总觉得自己必须很努力地有本事养活自己
也许因为这样，慢慢地变成了一个对钱很敏感的人...
我知道身为女儿身的，到最后都是靠自己有没有本事找个好归胥
所以，我觉得自己是个哪里有爱就会去哪里的人
而绝对不是一个值得在一起的人...

我不在乎永久的感情，我只是想要简单的爱情...
看见未来，却看不见现在
失去了很多已经不纯在的单纯，心跳的感觉，关心
也许我的未来会很精彩，很美好,因为你的用心良苦
但是我在乎的是现在
现在的我，得不到我想要的恋爱感觉
我想，无论年龄到了哪个阶段，每个女生，都会渴望拥有甜蜜的恋情...

聆听着他的诉苦，心里面难过得流泪
这样的事情，其实也发生过在自己的身上
想要过新的生活，却说不出想要分手的理由，连借口也懒得说
他的无奈，我都一一明白，因为这是一个没有答案的问题，所以我也没办法解释...
真的觉得，自己就好像少了一个朋友
是不是也同样意味着，我想出国深造的念头应该取消...
我不知道
只是很希望，他可以赶快振作起来
因为每天的活着，已经见证了我们的幸福
其实幸福不是要一个答案或者一样东西或一件事情
幸福，只要求简单，那就是快乐...

整天处于难过的状态中，彷佛这一切已发生过...

不久前，就曾感觉到这一天一定会来临，只是不知道会是什么时候
谁晓得，原来一年前，分手两个子已出现在他们的身上...
这几天的感触很深，曾经我像是他们的孩子般，常常跟随着他们，向他们撒娇
而他们对待我有如父母般，疼惜着我，保护我，让我开心...
这一切，已是几年前的事儿了...
如今，他们已分开，而自己也为此感到非常伤心及无奈

得到与失去，原来只是那么地一杀那... 在无奈中，唯有选择祝福...

恋爱及分离，总会遇上很多的考验
远距离的爱情，又有谁能够真正维持这样的关系
可是，那属于自己的理想呢，难道也必须因为这样而放弃？
面包与水，该如何抉择...

最近只觉得日子很忙
身体很累很疲惫
不想对任何人交代事情
只知道自己需要努力来完成手头上的任务。。

对于即将毕业的未来
心里确实有一些打算
但是却无法分析自己的想法
是正确还是错误
心中很凝乱。。

对于很多自己不满意的东西
看开了也不介意了
不想再压抑自己的情绪
喜欢的就说喜欢
不喜欢的就说不喜欢

直率！