最近只觉得日子很忙
身体很累很疲惫
不想对任何人交代事情
只知道自己需要努力来完成手头上的任务。。

对于即将毕业的未来
心里确实有一些打算
但是却无法分析自己的想法
是正确还是错误
心中很凝乱。。

对于很多自己不满意的东西
看开了也不介意了
不想再压抑自己的情绪
喜欢的就说喜欢
不喜欢的就说不喜欢

直率！

Friends are graduating one by one...

Watching their graduation recitals, it just looked like a farewell concert...
Really happy to see them finished their graduation recitals successfully with great performances, yet it just makes me feel sad and touching in another way...
It's not easy to prepare a good concert... From the moment we got released, I really feel so touching with all the efforts everyone has scarified...
Although this is not my graduation recital, I can imagine the feeling of it...
Sad, is because nobody knows how the days after today would be...
Maybe we will meet very seldom, or we will become strangers one day...
I just don't hope our friendship will be like that after this...
ANYWAY
Congratulations to all of you... I feel proud of you!

My final Modern Band exam, how I wish I could play it very well...

But it just very bad... too bad... very bad playing...

From the first time I play "My Favourite Thing" till now, it seems to have few years... But why, I still play it until so terrible? Even terrible than last time...

I was too disappointed with myself...

I am too lazy... definitely out of a musician's qualification.......

Very sad... the first time I play in MBE final exam until want to cry..

I just don't wish my subject ended like this...

But what can I do? It's over...

Maybe I just don't have chance to play in band again...

Never again...

I feel like I'm uselesss... very useless...

I lost all my energy suddently....

It was really a surprised! Let's Go Mamak has created a very deep touching for me in doing cultural music which is lacking a lot in Malaysia...

Ken Hor, you did it! I'm proud of you!
This show had given me a clearer direction of how Malaysia music should be. For the Inner Voices musicians, you guys really bravo!
I got nothing to say... Too good...

This few days were my emotional days... Don't know why...

Moody moody moody...
Don't wanna talk, Don't wanna smile, Don't wanna eat...
Moody moody moody...
Brain doesn't even listen to me, keep thinking rubbish... and rubbish...
Moody moody moody...
Sorry for those people whom I talked very loud to you, I don't mean anything but still sorry...
I will get back to myself soon, I promise...

I want to study at oversea
I want to learn saxophone
I want to expert in solo
I want to improve my English
I want to go London
I want to change myself to mature
I want to sell my songs
I want to have a complete studio
I want to have a super excellent graduation recital
I want to sell my songs
I want to be a song writer and music director
I want to change my life
I want to become healthy
I want to be a rich girl

Life... is always wanted so much....

Finally done all my song writing's songs.. Very happy...

I always say, I'm a composer, but not a song writer.
Well, actually I hope I can be a song writer after I graduate, but don't know why every time when I want to write a song, my heart feel very scare. I don't dare to start writing. I feel like what I write is very childish. I just scare.
I know, I shouldn't think like this, and I'm thinking too much.
I know, I didn't do anything for my future, which is starting and keep writing songs from now.
I know, back to the main point, I'm lazy.
I admit.
And
I want to change.
No more LAZY!
Then I'll achieve what I want.

Verse

A breezing morning with the birds’ singing
Wishing us found our beloved
And the witness of promises
You said love conquers all
Nothing is wasted
Once you fall in love
Be worthy of love

Chorus

Tears fall in our white wedding
To prove our happiness
For you, everything I’ll do
Till forever
Let’s tears falling in white wedding
With full of happiness
Hope our promises will last till the end of time

Verse 2

Remember love is supreme and unconditional
Romance is just about the little things
We will understand one day
Tie our heart with the ring
And swear to the sky
That we can’t just simply leave unless love is gone

Interlude

Why keep using kisses mouth to argue and fight Oh~
Kiss is love language so let’s talk it over

Just finish a new song, with the melody and only 1 chord.. The first time I wrote such a new stuff - Jewish music.. Well, I admit, I did copy from other's work, but you know, nowadays pop songs are keep copying from oldies... So, I think it's still alright...

What's a nice chord scale - Jewish scale (1 b2 3 4 5 b6 b7 1), create a very strong of the Jewish feel! Well, it ought to be, I'm too much, haha... This is the first time I finish to compose a song so fast. I think I'm getting familiar with what I did. Cool~~ Suppose to be!

Want to get closer to my dream, so I have to work hard work hard and work hard! I just have a very simple dream, that becomes one of my 21st birthday's wishes... Just want to make it archive...
ARCHIVE MY DREAM!