I couldn't sleep well yesterday... I dreamed that tomorrow is my graduation, but I haven't finish my composition. I only practice once with my band members and it was terrible. And tomorrow is my grad recital, how to perform? I choose not to attend my grad recital. My band members help me to play my songs. All the audience wondering why the composer is not there...

I'm suffering from preparing this recital... Very hard to get people to practice... We only can book jam room for 1 hour a week, how to practice? My songs haven't finish writing... I'm tired of changing and changing things... Tired of asking band member's timetable... Tired of receiving SMS from band members said that they are busy, can't attend the practice... I definitely understand all the graduates feeling... IT'S TOTALLY NO GOOD!

I wish to finish this project as soon as possible so that I can concentrate in doing other things... I don't want to have this kind of nightmare again... cause it's too real... I don't want to wake up in frighten again... No more, please...

From the moment confirm the Highlands Harmonica Festival and Yu Hua Harmonica Concert, I'm busying like hell... Need to prepare so many orchestra scores, train up the students, paper works, arranging, teaching, graduation recital, practice, meeting, so on and so on... Every morning woke up by the shining sun, then open the PC, start doing works, then go out either teaching or meeting, from here to there, then back at night, continue doing works, then sleep... I like this kind of life but everytime I think of my graduation recital, oh my god.. I still haven't finish my songs... I still haven't start to practice with my band... I still haven't do my program notes, port folio, CD, recording and so on... I'm really bad in time arrangement. Suppose everything has to start from last year holiday, but I didn't... My bad... I have to work very hard, cause I know I will achieve my dreams very soon... I want to make the festival and concert success! I want to make my graduation recital success! I want everybody admire me! I want to let all the people know:

DON'T SUSPECT A GIRL'S TALENT!