从知道他要结婚到现在
我都打从心底衷心地祝福他
因为像他这样的男人
女人心目中的模范男人
是注定要幸福的...
在昨晚的婚宴里
可以完全感受到
他心里面那种无语言喻的感动
围绕着每一个人...
尤其是当他想让他的另一半表示他有多幸福的那刻
我的眼泪一直在眼眶里打滚
因为爱的力量
真的能让身边的每一个人
当然也包括自己最爱的人
的生命充满了意义及感动...
婚姻
是另一个幸福的开始
我是一直这么认为的...
如果每一对夫妇都会在吵架的时候
想起他们结婚的那一刻
想起为对方戴上戒指的那一刻
我相信这世界上
就不会有那么多孤单并缺乏爱的孩子...

算了算
自己努力了7年
从2002-2008
终于拿到了追求了很久的冠军奖项...
这次凯旋归来
心中难免有很多的感触
尤其是独奏项目
谁也没有想过我竟然可以拿到一个亚军
亚太独奏亚军
已经很久没有女生领亚太独奏前三名的奖项了...
但是很奇怪
这次认同自己演奏的人不如从前
也没有太多的赞赏...
没关系
继续努力
总有一天会有人发现
亚军这个奖项
我是夺得实至名归的！

独奏 - 亚军
二重奏 - 亚军
四重奏 - 冠军

恭喜恭喜！
感谢一路以来支持我们FRESCO口琴重奏团的人
你知道我在说你 :)

昨晚发了一个很难过的梦
故事是这样的...

那已经是很深的夜了，我在旧家等爸爸来载我
当爸爸到达时，他很生气地拿着藤条一面打我一面骂
“做么你整天酱迟才回？又拿了我多少钱去吃？。。。”
然后我一面跑，一面哭着回答
“我刚刚去表演回来！我没有用你的钱，我是用自己的钱吃东西！你的钱在阿boy那里！ ”
然后我就跑到阿娘（伯母）的身后要她保护我...

然后，我醒了，只觉得心很痛...
曾经，我是爸妈最疼的孩子
但是现在，却觉得什么也没有了，没有了疼爱及关心...
总觉得自己必须很努力地有本事养活自己
也许因为这样，慢慢地变成了一个对钱很敏感的人...
我知道身为女儿身的，到最后都是靠自己有没有本事找个好归胥
所以，我觉得自己是个哪里有爱就会去哪里的人
而绝对不是一个值得在一起的人...

我不在乎永久的感情，我只是想要简单的爱情...
看见未来，却看不见现在
失去了很多已经不纯在的单纯，心跳的感觉，关心
也许我的未来会很精彩，很美好,因为你的用心良苦
但是我在乎的是现在
现在的我，得不到我想要的恋爱感觉
我想，无论年龄到了哪个阶段，每个女生，都会渴望拥有甜蜜的恋情...

聆听着他的诉苦，心里面难过得流泪
这样的事情，其实也发生过在自己的身上
想要过新的生活，却说不出想要分手的理由，连借口也懒得说
他的无奈，我都一一明白，因为这是一个没有答案的问题，所以我也没办法解释...
真的觉得，自己就好像少了一个朋友
是不是也同样意味着，我想出国深造的念头应该取消...
我不知道
只是很希望，他可以赶快振作起来
因为每天的活着，已经见证了我们的幸福
其实幸福不是要一个答案或者一样东西或一件事情
幸福，只要求简单，那就是快乐...

整天处于难过的状态中，彷佛这一切已发生过...

不久前，就曾感觉到这一天一定会来临，只是不知道会是什么时候
谁晓得，原来一年前，分手两个子已出现在他们的身上...
这几天的感触很深，曾经我像是他们的孩子般，常常跟随着他们，向他们撒娇
而他们对待我有如父母般，疼惜着我，保护我，让我开心...
这一切，已是几年前的事儿了...
如今，他们已分开，而自己也为此感到非常伤心及无奈

得到与失去，原来只是那么地一杀那... 在无奈中，唯有选择祝福...

恋爱及分离，总会遇上很多的考验
远距离的爱情，又有谁能够真正维持这样的关系
可是，那属于自己的理想呢，难道也必须因为这样而放弃？
面包与水，该如何抉择...

最近只觉得日子很忙
身体很累很疲惫
不想对任何人交代事情
只知道自己需要努力来完成手头上的任务。。

对于即将毕业的未来
心里确实有一些打算
但是却无法分析自己的想法
是正确还是错误
心中很凝乱。。

对于很多自己不满意的东西
看开了也不介意了
不想再压抑自己的情绪
喜欢的就说喜欢
不喜欢的就说不喜欢

直率！

Friends are graduating one by one...

Watching their graduation recitals, it just looked like a farewell concert...
Really happy to see them finished their graduation recitals successfully with great performances, yet it just makes me feel sad and touching in another way...
It's not easy to prepare a good concert... From the moment we got released, I really feel so touching with all the efforts everyone has scarified...
Although this is not my graduation recital, I can imagine the feeling of it...
Sad, is because nobody knows how the days after today would be...
Maybe we will meet very seldom, or we will become strangers one day...
I just don't hope our friendship will be like that after this...
ANYWAY
Congratulations to all of you... I feel proud of you!

My final Modern Band exam, how I wish I could play it very well...

But it just very bad... too bad... very bad playing...

From the first time I play "My Favourite Thing" till now, it seems to have few years... But why, I still play it until so terrible? Even terrible than last time...

I was too disappointed with myself...

I am too lazy... definitely out of a musician's qualification.......

Very sad... the first time I play in MBE final exam until want to cry..

I just don't wish my subject ended like this...

But what can I do? It's over...

Maybe I just don't have chance to play in band again...

Never again...

I feel like I'm uselesss... very useless...

I lost all my energy suddently....

It was really a surprised! Let's Go Mamak has created a very deep touching for me in doing cultural music which is lacking a lot in Malaysia...

Ken Hor, you did it! I'm proud of you!
This show had given me a clearer direction of how Malaysia music should be. For the Inner Voices musicians, you guys really bravo!
I got nothing to say... Too good...

This few days were my emotional days... Don't know why...

Moody moody moody...
Don't wanna talk, Don't wanna smile, Don't wanna eat...
Moody moody moody...
Brain doesn't even listen to me, keep thinking rubbish... and rubbish...
Moody moody moody...
Sorry for those people whom I talked very loud to you, I don't mean anything but still sorry...
I will get back to myself soon, I promise...

I want to study at oversea
I want to learn saxophone
I want to expert in solo
I want to improve my English
I want to go London
I want to change myself to mature
I want to sell my songs
I want to have a complete studio
I want to have a super excellent graduation recital
I want to sell my songs
I want to be a song writer and music director
I want to change my life
I want to become healthy
I want to be a rich girl

Life... is always wanted so much....

Finally done all my song writing's songs.. Very happy...

I always say, I'm a composer, but not a song writer.
Well, actually I hope I can be a song writer after I graduate, but don't know why every time when I want to write a song, my heart feel very scare. I don't dare to start writing. I feel like what I write is very childish. I just scare.
I know, I shouldn't think like this, and I'm thinking too much.
I know, I didn't do anything for my future, which is starting and keep writing songs from now.
I know, back to the main point, I'm lazy.
I admit.
And
I want to change.
No more LAZY!
Then I'll achieve what I want.

Verse

A breezing morning with the birds’ singing
Wishing us found our beloved
And the witness of promises
You said love conquers all
Nothing is wasted
Once you fall in love
Be worthy of love

Chorus

Tears fall in our white wedding
To prove our happiness
For you, everything I’ll do
Till forever
Let’s tears falling in white wedding
With full of happiness
Hope our promises will last till the end of time

Verse 2

Remember love is supreme and unconditional
Romance is just about the little things
We will understand one day
Tie our heart with the ring
And swear to the sky
That we can’t just simply leave unless love is gone

Interlude

Why keep using kisses mouth to argue and fight Oh~
Kiss is love language so let’s talk it over

Just finish a new song, with the melody and only 1 chord.. The first time I wrote such a new stuff - Jewish music.. Well, I admit, I did copy from other's work, but you know, nowadays pop songs are keep copying from oldies... So, I think it's still alright...

What's a nice chord scale - Jewish scale (1 b2 3 4 5 b6 b7 1), create a very strong of the Jewish feel! Well, it ought to be, I'm too much, haha... This is the first time I finish to compose a song so fast. I think I'm getting familiar with what I did. Cool~~ Suppose to be!

Want to get closer to my dream, so I have to work hard work hard and work hard! I just have a very simple dream, that becomes one of my 21st birthday's wishes... Just want to make it archive...
ARCHIVE MY DREAM!

刚刚参加完了颖嫔的21岁生日派对...虽然出席的人数没有很多,但是其中有一半的都是以前的中学同学.忽然间在一个月内与旧同学见面几次,感觉好像以往上课的那种日子,忽然好怀念...

在休息的时候,忽然兴致勃勃地走到电视面前看五月天演唱会的DVD,才黯然发现,原来自己多久没被音乐的热诚感动过了...没错,他们的音乐真的能够抒发出一种很真诚的感动与温馨,那是我念了音乐那么久所一直忽略的感觉...原来,情绪对一个音乐人来说,是多么多么地重要...忽然间好自卑,真的...我不应该只是这样的...

我明白了,自己不能够再那么简单,那么渺小,那么不起眼...应该属于自己的世界,我应该继续往那里去...

去吧...去找回最初的感动...

Cute~~

Never mean to post this so late, but I really don't know how to function this blog... So stupid! Well, nvm, finally I've figure out the functions after trying thousand times to get what I want... Finally... YES!

First of all, I want to thanks all my friends who came for my birthday party! Really thank you for your coming, your wishes and your presents... Also, thanks for other people who didn't attend my party but still sending your wishes to me...
THANK YOU SO MUCH! I LOVE YOU ALL~~

My 21st Birthday Party, planned to organize this for so long, because it's not easy to invite so many friends to come, it's truth... But finally, I did it! Thank you so much my dear dear, for helping me a lot in preparing this, and gave me a wonderful party... and, the ring...

also with the 99 roses...

oh my god~ I can't believe it... I was so surprised, really...

Well, I also received an unbelievable present, given by my "chicken gang"! Touching~~ I love you guys!

Well, I like other presents as well! I don't know how to express my appreciate... really....
THANK YOU~~